Hello everyone, it has been a minute since I have been on here and a lot has happened. If you have read my last post I have been struggling with anxiety and PTSD since losing my mom at the end of 2018. I still can’t really wrap my head around it and honestly hate to think about it. When I get to a certain level of anxiety it triggers stomach issues and a lot of vomiting. The reason I’m sharing this is because I know for a fact that I am not the only person going through this. For me I need to try to understand myself again. I am realizing I am a completely different person now since my mom has passed away and I need to learn who I am again. I have learned and am learning how to be strong in many different ways. I also have been feeling less of myself and not worthy enough. I don’t feel as confident like I used to when I had her by my side.
The next steps I have started to take was first going to the doctors and making sure everything internally is ok. I also have slowly started to work out and have been realizing it helps release my anxiety and anger that I have built up. I also have started a gratitude list, I write every morning to set my mind in a positive direction. I have a lot of work to do but its a day by day process and I need to take slow steps. Every morning I have two beautiful girls looking up to me . I don’t know about anyone else but that is a lot of pressure. I work so hard everyday to make my girls proud and also strong independent future woman.
I am excited to be back and keep the journey going with you guys……………………..NITE!