I started the new year off strong and graduated with my Bachelors Degree in Graphic Design and Media Arts. It took me a long time to get here and a lot of obstacles. I have been in the hair industry all my life I grew up into it, My mother was a hairstylist for about 35 years before she passed. Now professionally I have been in the industry for about 14 years. Thinking about changing careers is scary and also very exciting. In my life I need more stability I need to make more money for my family as well as being set up for me to retire one day. For me I don’t think the hair industry will give me that. So where do I start with my new career? I have so many ideas where I want to start. It also is so intimidating and gives me incredible anxiety .
My dream is to start my own studio. I don’t know if I should just dive right into that or go out in the art world and get my feet wet. Meeting new people is hard for me and this new chapter I’m about to embark on is definitely going to challenge me as a person and take me out of my comfort zone.
On top of all this going on, I am a stay at home mom with my two girls now 6 years old and 2 years old. My 6 year old is homeschooled and is in the first grade now. Homeschooling is very rewarding for all of us and also very hard on me. I am a learning coach to my first grader and tend to my 2 year old as well. Im very strict with schedules because I always feel like I am being pulled in so many directions I just want to be fair with both girls. I always feel like at the end on the day I still don’t give them enough. Then there I am screaming inside to start my new chapter but these girls come first!!!
There is not enough time in the day for me to do everything and these girls wake up at like 5AM everyday and there is still no enough time. By the time the girls are relaxed at night and ready to go to bed I know I should be trying to start my new career but I am so tired from taking care of them. Then my anxiety kicks in and I start being down on myself because I need to do what makes me happy as well and I want to provide for my girls in other ways as well as being home with them. This is where I am now …… Lets see if I can figure this out.